suddenly grown, endlessly growing

Summer days dazzle as he dips
into her well of youthful vigour
it's only till he's grown a bit she thinks.
Somewhere within she knows:
her youth has bloomed
her once upon a times are faded:
uncertain futures dawn his every day.

Image (c) Author: Aug 31,2019

Separation anxiety

~ Separation Anxiety ~ flowered from a genesis is birthed a role drifting away fault lines now hold sway ~ Separation Anxiety ~ flowered from a genesis is birthed a role drifting away fault lines now hold sway

Image (c) Author: Cape Town Waterfront Aug 28, 2018

I don't live to assuage the guilt of the dead

In the moment of change
its not for the last
nor for the least
not for the next
or even an act of contrition
or a longing for redemption.

sourced from what I know
and've learned about myself.
insight,
absent of guilt, 
in a moment of realisation 
brings a dawning awakening light

knowing how it ripples
as tiny droplets do
rippling across my memories
each ripple washing a neighbour
in waves moving over and on. 
each drop is driving a difference
a necessary needed difference
steering in some small measure
an outlook and new perception.

another droplet will fall
fashioned in its moment to be
another and then another
driving the changing me.

this is no river of tears
it carries no retribution
the past is not assuaged
no garden of Eden intention.

this change is a gift to my future
and a possible gift to yours

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this thought

as my ego fades

this thought

Sometimes
as the mind slips to a tipping point of emptiness
a thought starts to surface about me
and then of you.
And other times its you first, and then me.

 9Jan14

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all the pointers they have shown

all the pointers they have shown,
that you & I need time alone ... 
(our busy lives are just a cover to keep ourselves one from the other) 

not just each other! 
a busy life will keep away the mortal truth of life's decay 
I'm fine just me! 
I'm free you see! 
Let's make a date! 
what's that? too late? 

There's duty & things that closeness brings 
 ... 
take response a bility 
some account a bility 
selfish gene a gility 
... 
well then ... 
Let it not be. 
not you, not me. 
we'll always find another! 
and yet . . . 
and yet, never to another. 

Oh hell. 
Just use me when you need me, find me when you will. 
my shadow's there beside you, a shadow there until 
there's no one else to need to 
or the minds have lost their will. 

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me without you without me

Me without you is a still wind in a cemetery
a headstone without words
an ending without beginning
a living unknown
a falling suspended.

begun unseen ended
darkness in sunlight
heartbeats distended.

Me without you is a midnight extended

dawning to sun-setting
a dream.

Othertimes.

othertimes me without you feels no better than any other combination that has me in it without you.


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